Okay, enough denial.. Yesterday I went to a play date with two girlfriends and their children. We took pictures to put on Facebook and my blog but there was one picture I did not post. You probably guessed it had me in it. Yep, that is the one. I know I am overweight but somehow I allow myself to say its not that bad. Of course I am really only looking into a face mirror and not a full length one. (haha) There is no denying what was in the picture. It was bad. I looked awful and I am not kidding. I haven't been feeling well or sleeping well either, other symptoms I can attribute to my being overweight. This morning as I rolled over in bed. I could feel the food from last night sitting in my throat.( I know gross but true) Those of you who are over weight so know what I am talking about. My body was creeking and groaning, yet I pulled myself out of bed and took a 40 min walk. I listened to praise music and just worshipped the Lord as I walked and took in His creation. As I am thinking about the whole face mirror thing. I am realizing that I can do that spiritually too. Oh, when I take a look at what I am doing part of it is really good so I don't focus on the part that is really bad and needs fine tuning from the Lord. I justify my behavior in the weight area and the spiritual area. They really are the same.. I have allowed a little god in my life... Food.... I feed every emotion, thus taking time from my Father. Then I am continually justifying my behavior, or just plain making excuses. "It runs in my family, if I had more time, I can't leave the kids to go workout, I don't feel well, and many, many, more. The bottom line is I am choosing not to lose weight. Oh I want to lose the weight but I do not want to do the work. I want a quick fix! The walk this morning felt good. It's a start. I pray the Lord will give me strength to take this battle head on and fight, fight hard. I really don't want to be a size 2. I gave that up a long time ago I just want to feel well, sleep well and live a productive life without restrictions that I have caused to myself. Today as the Lord leads I am going to pray for all of you who are struggling in this area as well as myself.
Here's to a healthier life.
Blessings,
Linda
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I too am struggling. Today it is raining so Dad and I didn't walk at lunch time. There is a lot of stress at work with the budget cuts and the personnel issues. I am trying to pull figures together to justify keeping the number of counselors I have to provide the Soldier's with the treatment they deserve. Ate a big lunch and at 5:30 P.M. I am still stuffed. Over the many years that I have gone up and down I have put feet to my prayers. Now I feel paralyzed and with each year I've added 10 pounds until I can hardly walk because my knees hurt so badly. Sin, gluttony, self indulgence, I have the head knowledge and know what it is but can't seem to get the head knowledge to the heart. I love you. You are in my prayers as all of us battle denial.
Well said and so true. It is a battle, and so difficult to overcome. Even with the weight I've lost I still struggle and have to pray daily for help from the Lord.
Its a daily process that God will help you through.
Hang in there!
Hey sister,
So glad one of you updated besides me!! SO well said!!!! Love ya and will be praying we can all get it together, rely on the Lord and appreciate this body that God has given us and do something good for it and for us ~ by being healthy! Not a quick fix but a life long fix! I know I'm certainly not living the best life God has planned for me because most days are consumed with what I'm going to eat or how I look - negative thoughts each and every day! urgh!!
Love ya
Sandy
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