Denial with a capital D

Okay, enough denial.. Yesterday I went to a play date with two girlfriends and their children. We took pictures to put on Facebook and my blog but there was one picture I did not post. You probably guessed it had me in it. Yep, that is the one. I know I am overweight but somehow I allow myself to say its not that bad. Of course I am really only looking into a face mirror and not a full length one. (haha) There is no denying what was in the picture. It was bad. I looked awful and I am not kidding. I haven't been feeling well or sleeping well either, other symptoms I can attribute to my being overweight. This morning as I rolled over in bed. I could feel the food from last night sitting in my throat.( I know gross but true) Those of you who are over weight so know what I am talking about. My body was creeking and groaning, yet I pulled myself out of bed and took a 40 min walk. I listened to praise music and just worshipped the Lord as I walked and took in His creation. As I am thinking about the whole face mirror thing. I am realizing that I can do that spiritually too. Oh, when I take a look at what I am doing part of it is really good so I don't focus on the part that is really bad and needs fine tuning from the Lord. I justify my behavior in the weight area and the spiritual area. They really are the same.. I have allowed a little god in my life... Food.... I feed every emotion, thus taking time from my Father. Then I am continually justifying my behavior, or just plain making excuses. "It runs in my family, if I had more time, I can't leave the kids to go workout, I don't feel well, and many, many, more. The bottom line is I am choosing not to lose weight. Oh I want to lose the weight but I do not want to do the work. I want a quick fix! The walk this morning felt good. It's a start. I pray the Lord will give me strength to take this battle head on and fight, fight hard. I really don't want to be a size 2. I gave that up a long time ago I just want to feel well, sleep well and live a productive life without restrictions that I have caused to myself. Today as the Lord leads I am going to pray for all of you who are struggling in this area as well as myself.
Here's to a healthier life.
Blessings,

Linda